So, can we not grow up?

Right now, I pretty much hate growing up. There's nothing easy in growing up! Growing up forces you to do a lot of things you DON'T want to do in the first place. Growing up means more responsibility and less play. Growing up also means you can't focus on the present too much coz you've got a future to plan ahead. Growing up sometimes can be a pain in the a** bcoz you are expected to deal with your problems sensibly instead of crying it out loud. If you cry, people will recognize you as a lembik person. Urgh. I hate that mentality. Tak salah pun nak menangis. Sometimes, crying may be the best solution of all, when raw emotions are portrayed, and people get to see the real you. Tapi jangan lah sikit2 nak menangis. Yang tu memang lembik sungguh la. Hehe.

I think I've sidetracked a lil bit from the intended topic. Lol. So, growing up. It's a not a pleasurable business at all. Ok, sometimes I do enjoy it bcoz it means much more freedom. But hmmm...I miss the simplicity of childhood. The idea of all day play and no work is so appealing to me. Nampak sangat malas nak buat keje. I remember I used to play so hard when I was a mere child, I once being kept out from the house by my mom. Yelah keluar rumah awal2 pagi, dekat2 nak senja baru nak balik. Mak mane tak marah. Almost everyday macam tu. When I was a child, I climbed all the trees in my grandparents' compound,  I played 'masak-masak' with my cousins and neighbours and eventually the game evolved to 'kawin olok-olok'. I vandalized my grandpa's teaching place, the classes, the pondoks etc, which I regretted later on. I raced with the boys, of course it was only a bicycle race at that time. I used to have this bicycle that had a shape like a motorbike, so riding one was like riding a real motorbike,or at least we pretended to be. I also went fishing with my dad where I made my own joran and used sayur kangkung as the bait and were bitterly disappointed when I didn't catch the fish. Needless to say, my childhood was an adventurous one. AND I MISS THAT! Now is all work work work, and when you want to play, you got no time anymore to spend.    

And you know what, it's so ever scary when our minds (I'm referring to my friends and I, btw) are focusing on the idea of getting married. We are talking marriage now, can you believe that?! I don't. Haha. Plausible yeah, but scary nonetheless! We're growing up way too fast to my liking!

if friends feel like siblings,

you fight, you make up, you get close again,

then they are your true friends,

and these are some of them :)

P/S: And I came out with this post bcoz I'm way too depressed now that Amin is making his way back to the States :(