I feel like writing and yet I haven't got any idea what to talk about here. All I know is, the need of writing something must be quenched or else I'd be reckless for the whole night. So, it's now or never, baby ;P
If you read one of my previous entries before, something about me talking of a forbidden love, then you'll know what I'm talking about later. I admit, right now I am blissfully engaged to this particular person and I like it. I love the feeling I'm having now. I can feel the positive vibes surrounding all over me. That's supposed to be good, isn't it? Then, why I feel like there's something missing in my life?
Today... I accidentally found a photo of you being tagged by a friend of yours. I hovered over the link more than a minute it seemed, and the sudden ravenous feeling of wanting to see you is eating me alive! I can't bear to have that feeling, you know? It hurts me real bad just thinking that I can't have you for like...ever! =( And, that is why I set a distance between you and me. I don't want to get hurt by hurting myself with my own actions and I don't want you to get hurt by me.
Do you still remember, back then when we were way younger, we have this habit of waiting for each other just to chat online through YM. That's sweet, isn't it? Everyday, we waited for each other and you even woke me up during the hols just to make sure I won't miss you online. We even set times when was the best time to online and having non-stop conversation. We would talk for hours and I love the way you made me laugh with your stupid jokes and charmed me with your sincerity. I miss those moments, you know? Don't you miss them, too? Please tell me you do!
And now, it's just plain different. While we are living in the same environment, the same place to be exact, apparently there seems to be a barrier that separated us. It feels like we are in the middle of a peek-a-boo game. I look for you but you hide yourself away, and when you are there, standing in front of me, I run away. Silly, huh?
I wonder what really have happened to us. Why are we becoming more like strangers to each other? Can't we be just like before?
P.S. You're still my prince charming
minum kopi etc tu tak bagus kalau sokmo.
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